Reviving my blog after a hiatus. This is not going to the blog cemetery.
I have a topic to write about now so maybe I can finally be less random. It’s about my grad studies.
I just enrolled in the university less than 12 hours ago. The youthful vibe was so palpable in the compound. After all, I was at the sports and recreation area. I love it – brings back fond memories of my junior college days especially.
Going back to school after so long, I am not very confident. So why am I doing this? I do surprise myself. It’s some kind of impulse that I can’t quite explain. It’s THAT circuit that lights up at the instant of decision.
So I am going for an orientation talk on Friday, meet my sup and select the modules. I have a lot to get up to speed on and I think my case could be a outlier given some rather more different circumstances.
And I need to sort out my formal and informal work front. Several possible permutations. Now which one… generally, decisions should not be made based on fear, like fear of lack. There was a point where I was seriously concerned about my livelihood. O you lacking in faith.
I wonder how this will pan out. Here, I am a spectator and the lead actor, but not necessarily the scriptwriter. Looking back, getting to this stage has been a journey too. The meanders and iterations. This would continue as it is research. It is fun and exciting but a tat scary too. Performance anxiety? That sometimes bugs me. Doubts, they come. But having walked with the Lord for so many years, I have learned a thing or two about keeping these pesky emotions, which have their origins in negative thinking, at bay.